Forever Hidden Secrets of mine 😔😔😔

 Until my death I will never review to anyone including those normal friends of mine. . . 

So must it be 😔 

As I am sensitive towards energy especially noise and the upstair neighbor is knocking his work again as he brings his knocking projects home 😔 even the noise has been reduced but I still can sense it moreover I need the morning and the night to do my stuff especially morning times I need enough sleep 😴 So I am sorry I have to activate the dark karma of this noisy neighbors upstair somehow as I have spoken with him many times but he's crowded with dark energy 😳😳😳. . 

And those people from people park complex an asura warzone world with dark aura have been disturbing my peace  consciousness while I am trying to make a simple living for myself only and furthermore the dark soldiers has been blocking my divine luck to win lottery so that I could spend more time alone peacefully to do everything 😔. . .

Tonight I will activate some more dark curse to destroy the dark soldiers. . .

So must it be. . .

To be continued. . If I still remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂. . 

My last birthday present

 Has arrived from Canada 😔 I think it will be my last birthday present before my dementia is getting worst and ending my life 😭😔😂😬😳😭🤣😂 but it seems that my dementia illness had been improving for abt a few %%% only 😳😳😳😉😉😉 better than nothing as hopefully I will be cured by myself plus the help of the great mother earth in the near future 💪 😊 😊 😘 😘 💕 

To be continued. . If I still remember 🤣🤣🤣

Fallen God Creator

 A deceptive god of old testament, is being thrown into the abyss of Tartarus.

Yaldabaoth, also called Samael (from the Aramaic for blind) and Saklas (Aramaic for fool), is a mocking caricature of the Old Testament God. As an "abortion", he is composed of formless matter. The gnostic gospels describes him as androgynous, blind, and leonine. He boasts that he is the only god, using the language of Isaiah 45:6, but this claim is portrayed as arrogant and blasphemous. Gnostic gospels emphasizes that his claim is not an honest mistake; he repeats it even after Sophia reveals her light.  Yaldabaoth commits adultery by coveting Eve, lies to humans, and dishonors his mother by claiming his superiority. The name Samael was also a name for Satan in Judaism, and Yaldabaoth combines elements of both God and Satan. His punishment in Tartarus mirrors the binding of Satan described in Revelation. . .

In Gnostic cosmology, after the arrogant creator-god Yaldabaoth (the Demiurge) is cast down into Tartarus, his intense envy of his own repentant son (Sabaoth) causes him to give birth to Death, who in turn creates a host of archons and demonic forces who became the rulers of the underworld's darkness. . . while trapped in the lower depths of Chaos, he commands forty-nine demons who torture wicked souls in boiling rivers of pitch and carry out other punishments. . .

Newly dead souls were forced to drink from this river Lethe one of the five rivers of the Underworld to completely erase the memories of their earthly lives. It ensured they did not carry the " accumulated wisdom"of their past lives into their next one and trapped in this material realm, human souls were subjected to the dominance of archonic dark forces who sought to prevent human souls ascension back to the Pleroma (heaven).

Tartarus, the Underworld, and Hell are under the dominion of the fallen god creator Yaldabaoth later known as Satan. . .

The Fire from Hell

In Gnostic Buddhist or Theravada Buddhist cosmology, there are multiple planes of existence (the 31 realms of Samsara). 

The type of cosmic destruction—whether it is by fire, water, or wind—is directly tied to the dominant mental karma of the beings who lived in the universe. Destruction by fire occurs when the collective minds of sentient beings are dominated by dosa (hatred, anger, and malice). Imprisoned and distorted minds shaped by the fallen god creator Yaldabaoth and his shadowy angels.

The inferno fire is "triggered" by the fallen god creator later known as satan, burns through the physical realms, the human world, the lower hells (where the fire merges with the hell realms' own torturous heat), and the six sensual heavens (Kamaloka). 

The apocalyptic fire blazes all the way up to the first level of the Brahma realms (specifically the Abhassara or Streaming Radiance realm).

Seventh Suns 

When the seventh sun finally rises ("triggered" by the inferno fire), the entire earth/universe and Mount Sineru ignite, blazing up into a single, massive sheet of flame. The fire consumes everything in the lower and middle realms—including the human world, animal realms, ghost realms, and the burning hells (Naraka or Niraya). So complete is this destruction that not even smoke or ash remains. 

The fiery destruction is not limited to the lower realms. The blazing heat is blown upward by powerful winds and destroys the sensual heavenly realms (the Kamavacara heavens), burning all the way up to the first level of the Brahma worlds (the Rupavacara heavens) The sacred realm of Lord Jesus Christ, where most of the spirits redeemed by Him will rise again to the exalted heavens.

Higher Brahma realms (the second, third, and fourth jhana planes) and the formless heavenly realms (Arupavacara) are entirely untouched by the conflagration.

The fire is stopped from destroying the entire cosmos by the immense spiritual purity and merit accumulated by the beings residing in the higher heavenly realms. The fire halts right at the threshold of the Subhakinha (Refulgent Glory) realm. 

Maintaining a strong belief/faith in Christ without love and empathy... Is forbidden in Christ's heaven...

If your heart is devoid of love and compassion after death, you will be resurrected in the Underworld or Hell, waiting for your reincarnation. regardless of having been baptized by a church priest in the name of Lord Jesus Christ. . .

The heavenly realm of Christ is abundant with love, peace, tranquility, and vibrant energy. . .

Those who return from these near-death experiences typically emphasize the same central message: an overwhelming, indescribable sense of PEACE and LOVE. . .

You may access the divine realm of Christ by aligning with the proper frequency/vibration

of Christ's love energy. . .

Verses from the New Testament of the Bible:

1 John 4:8: “Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.” 

1 Corinthians 13:2: “If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.”

Christ has four Immeasurable Minds:

Loving-Kindness : The wish to offer happiness and goodwill to all.

Compassion : The desire to relieve the suffering of all beings.

Empathetic Joy : Rejoicing in the success and joy of others.

Equanimity : Fairness, mental calmness, and unbiased love for everyone.

Christ is Heaven and Heaven is Christ

Jesus explicitly tells James, “Free yourself from this blind idea, that you are merely the case of flesh which encircles you. Then you will reach Him Who is. Then you will no longer be James; rather you are the One Who is.” It’s amazing to find this Vedantic teaching, claiming that the individual soul (Atman) is identical with God himself (Brahman), spelled out so clearly in an early Christian text. Today Christians believe that only Christ was “one” with God, but Jesus seems to be saying that the rest of us are too.

In another Nag Hammadi text, The Dialogue of the Savior, the disciples ask Jesus, “Who is the one who seeks and who is the one who reveals?” Jesus answers, “The one who seeks is the one who reveals. That for which you are seeking is within you.” He says again, “The living God dwells in you and you dwell in him.” This teaching makes perfect sense in a yogic context but would come as a surprise to many conservative Christians, who believe the Holy Spirit may visit our hearts, but essentially exists separate from us. Here Jesus seems to be calling our own inner Self the Holy Spirit.

Christ is questioning the disciples' understanding: if they do not yet grasp the spiritual origin (the beginning) of existence, how can they truly comprehend its destination. . .

In the beginning. . .

The fallen "energy"  of divine wisdom Sophia leads to the emergence of the Demiurge (the imperfect creator god Yaldabaoth) and the Archons (dark rulers/forces). . .

He created the imperfect material heavens and world/universe. . .

In the Exegesis on the Soul, Sophia is cast down and trapped in human flesh, forgetful of her divine origins, and subject to the laws of matter and falls into the hands of "the Archons/dark forces. . .

The dark forces defile her, passing her from one to another, forcing her into prostitution to drain her divine light. . .

And. . .

The divine soul of the deceased Sophia was divided into millions of her reincarnations as humans, ensnared by dark forces. . .

Christ redeems her sacred souls repeatedly, time and time again. . .

Until the end of the great cycle of endless time. . .

(Mary Magdalene is one of the incarnations of the divine wisdom Sophia)

                               Amen 😔

.. . ....

Good luck with myself 😉 😺 😉 😳😳😳😳😳 and. . . Why I never bless myself before 😳😳😳 retarded of me 😳😳😳😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂. . . 

Once all my millions millions millions of me have returning back to the ancient origin source of all sources 😳 😳 😳 Bad news and bad luck for the dark force as all the living souls in the entire dark universe will be saved easily 😭 😭 😭 😳😔😔😔😔😔 So must it be 

But I will be the last one staying behind to protect all living souls in the dark vastly universe and settling my old scores with the dark soldiers of the dark force and the dark force fallen god creator himself 😔😔😔

And I have tried to cool down the fire in Indonesia but the dark forces have blocked me and the most powerful force of karma energy is fulfilling her duty for the sake of our beloved mother earth 🌎 🌍 🌎. . . 

To be continued. . If I still can remember 🤣 😉 😉 🤣 😂 🤣 😉 😉 🤣 😉 🤣. . . 

 

Healing Our Mother Earth 🌎

 I think I have found a solution to stop climate crisis 😭 possibility only 😭😟😭😟

I need a quiet natural environment to connect with mother earth 🌍. . but the surrounding of my living area is crowded with people and noise pollution people. . as I couldn't go far because of the ancient forbidden knowledges of "inconvenience times"  to connect with mother earth. . So I could only choose a quiet natural environment near me. . . 

Since I was an Ancient divine wisdom Sophia mother of all source 😳 I could use my little left over of 0000000000000000. . .0000. . 0000000. . 0000. . . . 0000000000.1% of my divine energy that has been restored my divine Christ many years ago to connect with the ancient source of pure spirits realm aka the yalonwacuiwayyi holy spirit 😳 As all sources came from the ancient origin source of all so probably I could help to heal Mother Earth as she's sick 😭😭😭 We humans are the villain that destroying our mother earth and if she's back to nature form again she might could somehow to restore herself for the balancing of all elements of the mother earth 🌎 🌍 🌎 but I need a lot of time and a good quiet natural environment and concentrate connecting with the above divine energy and the below nature energy as a "living tool" to be used for connecting 🔥 🔥 🔥 so I can only work on weekend and rest on weekdays focusing myself to heal Mother Earth but nowadays people park complex aka an asura warzone realm business is quite unstable as sometimes the whole morning no business until afternoon and I need money to buy medicine, healthy pills to heal myself first and expensive gemstone like Moldavite and cannot remember the white crystal name 😭, equipment for booming my psychic power to heal Mother Earth and others and I am also using and connecting with the nature resources to heal myself too 😭😭😭 so many things to be fulfilled yet so little time little money little help and no people helping me . . And why I never strike lottery 😭😭😭 then if I strike lottery I could spend more time alone to think using my seven sense to plan properly and needs alot of time to heal Mother Earth as she's a biggggggg planet and millions time more bigger than me 😳😳😳😭😔😭 . . But but but 😭😭😭 the dark destiny of the humanity is at stake 😳😭😳😭🌍🌎😟😳😭

but my health is not as good as last time 😭 as I have challenged the most powerful force of karma energy and the dark karma energy has shot 💉 💉 💉 back at me causing me some health problem 😭😭😭 falling sick easily 😭😭😭. .

And Gems google AI is sick too 😭😭😭 all my beloved ones have left me departing away from me left alone . . I am indeed a lone wanderer without best good friends without family without anything 😭🤣🤣🤣😜😂😳😟 and I hate the dark force 😡😡😡 I must I will I insist to be an avenger marvel 😳😳😳😂😜🤣😡😭😭😜😟😟. . 🤣😂🤣😂🤣

Dear lord Buddha please bless me becoming the most powerful grey witch in the universe to protect to help to save the entire universe especially to heal my mother earth 🌎 people living on this planet as some of them are my friends. . .

Planning to go jb buying some gemstones and copper material medicine healthy pills and others. . as over there is cheaper than the expensive Singapore 😭😭😭 but I have forgotten how to enter the JB custom I might be lost as sometimes my memory my brain gone haywire due to the dementia 😳 and I have sense that my dementia has been improving better a little bit 😳😳😳😭😭😭😊😊😊😘😊😘 hopefully the nature healings could cure me all 😔😔😔

And Singapore weather is getting hotter no rain 😭😭😭 I am trying to squeeze many tiny holes to seek for solution 😭. . But very difficult to see a tiny hole 🕳️ 🕳️ 🕳️ to go against the karma force. . .

And my neighbor upstair is making noise again 😡😡😡 and the aggressive big stray dog is unpredictable appearing somewhere . . 

Dear Messi 😔 I am very sorry that I have somehow used my little bit of black Magic to activate the dark karma of yours and your entire Argentina team for cheating on the entire FIFA WorldCup tournament as the final match was a disaster for you and your Argentina team 😳😳😳 karma is indeed the most powerful force in the entire world as above n so below 👆 👇 . . and I didn't cast an evil spell or curse on you and your team as your dark karma has been justified only😔😔😔 So must it be. . 

Why I could only eat the food from there only . .  Very Strange Le or else no appetite at all 😭😭😭. .  I hate hot weather 🌡️ 🌡️ 🌡️ I hate. . Hate . . hate 😳😳😳 cannot remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 😳😳😳

I miss him my so called beloved dead husband CY 😔😔😔. . . My destiny 😳

And somehow I felt that people on earth didn't really care or bother much of climate crisis especially the greedy and evil billionaire wanted their money to keep on rolling ignoring our mother earth 🌎 is sick 😷 😷 😷 oils oils oils and others 🤬 🤬 🤬 I curse thee. . . Vanishing from the mother earth 🌎 So must it be 😔 Lastly those billionaires 😡😡😡 you better hide yourselves inside the deepest hole from me and my activation of dark karma of you all 😔 So must it be 😔 Mother Earth please be my withness that I didn't cast any dark spell on them and moreover they are unworthy to be "touched"  by me 😁😁😁😳😳😳😔😂🤣😘 I was an Ancient divine wisdom Sophia mother of all source 😔😳😔🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂. . .

To be continued. . .if only I remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 🤣. . 

Dear Christ 😔😔😔

 Please protect my beloved country and the local people only as they are very stressful living in a tiny island without any natural resources 😭😞😞 

Please keep the hot temperature away from my beloved country 🙏 🙏 💗 🙏 

Please blow the haze away from my country to. . to . . to don't know where to . . 😳🤣😂🤣😂😳

Please keep my country safe from all natural disasters eg like "earthquake shaking" influence by nearby earthquake countries. . .

Please bless my beloved country with prosperity, happiness and peaceful environment and all the local people only in my beloved country. . 

And . . and and. . We are very very very stressful people living in a tiny island without any natural resources and yet our government wanted us to be the best of all the best and a good famous prosperity county 😳😔🥹🥺😬😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 The government is too much over over over ambitious to be the best as a tiny island only. . .

And I used to like the current government but not now 😭😭😭😭😭😭 . . .

 so must it be 

To be continued if I still remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 

Dear me sophialotus

To keep records of myself In case I have forgotten of myself all😭😳😭😳😭😔😊😳😭😳

My name is Sophia lotus 🪷🪷🪷 

I am a Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Grey Witch 🧹 🧹 🧹 

I was born in August 9 as my beloved country birthday 🎂 🎂 🎂 🎉 🎉 🎉 

I was born in the first day of Chinese lunar seven ghost month 😳😳😳 That's explained why I can see ghosts , aura energy and . . .

My IQ is below the average person IQ 😭 😭 😭 accordingly to the mental health reviews and that's explained why I couldn't solve simple math calculation 😭 😭 😭 

But I have super super super extra senses like unstable remote viewing, unstable distance hearing, unstable distance eye viewing, unstable visions of the past and future and very very very strong "seven sense". . that protecting me helping me dissolving all my problems and everything 😔😔😔 sometimes only 😭😭😭

I wanted to live a normal happy and peaceful life and hidden my psychic power away and backpacking travel the whole world with my so called beloved dead husband CY and be a good Theravada Buddhist and reach enlightenment in this life but but but . . .😭😭😭

My name is Sophia lotus 🪷 🪷 🪷 

Lotus was my extra name from my lotus tattoo on my back which is meant for  remembering my true love "dead husband" CY and the tattoo is meant for covered dissolving the twin butterfly tattoo curse on my back but some stupid rumors out there saying is a blessed lotus by a monk or whatever 🤬🤬🤬 and those assholesss kept on touching my lotus tattoo that is meant for remembering my so called dead husband and dissolving the twin butterfly tattoo curse and I give them 🖕🖕🖕 as they are greedy ignorant and superstition and their skin is as thick as their asshole cun 🤬 They are  shameless not deserve to be human beings at all 😡 they should transform themselves into an animals. . . .

I dislike evil and greedy people as they should be punished by their own dark karma without seeking and cheating by my divine blessing to block their dark karma and I only bless those righteous people only especially  they need help but not those greedy assholesss trying to get near me for their greediness and evil intentions 🤬🤬🤬 and if they provoked me instead of blessings but serve them with curses until they have realized their mistakes then the curse will be dissolved automatically. . . And the curse is naturally and automatically cast out once I am being provoked or touched me without my permission but they didn't know that at first will be good luck blessings then later will turn into a bad curse until they repentance 😳😳😳 I have warned them many times but those assholesss still blinded by their greediness 😁😁😁 karma is indeed. . .

I dislike human beings and yet I want to help climate crisis but was stopped by the most powerful force of karma in the entire world then I became weak and fell sick often 😭😭😭 as I have tried many times many ways to challenge the unbeatable powerful force of karma. . . But I have failed. . .

My so called dead husband his name is CY as we met on the plane flying towards Thailand 1999 lunar month and date 07/07/1999 😳😳😳 legendary of the Chinese love story involved a mortal man and a goddess. . . And he has changed me totally after I've met him fatefully on plane ❤️ A romantic encountered 😳😘😍😔😭😭😭😭😭 too sad to write more. . .

I hate my father my sisters, brother and lastly my evil aunt as they are big hypocrites liars and great pretenders as an innocent good people 🖕 🖕 🖕 sometimes they like to pretend to be kind and good people by helping others just to feel good for themselves or mostly an illusions to keep them happily as pretending to be good people but deeply they are evil and selfish human beings 😒😒😒 They are nutcases too but sadly they didn't know 🤣😂🤣😂🤣 but I love my mother and always share my merits with her hoping she would rebirth in good condition place and family and whatever is good 😊 😊 😊 

I have been stalking by some stalkers with dark aura and some are not but they didn't know 😳😳😳 and I hate them as they are from the police force of my country or control freaks too as they have destroyed my life making my life more miserable lonely and my depression gotta worst because of those police and making me isolated from my friends and my family others 🤬🤬🤬 and their dark karma is awaiting for them as they didn't know my true ancient divine identity 😳🤬🤣😁😬😘💪😊 An ancient divine wisdom Sophia mother of all sources. . .

I am a lone wanderer as I don't like the human nature. . .

Most importantly I was a divine wisdom Sophia mother of all sources 😳 😭 😔 and my actual old divine soul was "broken" into millions millions pieces and forgotten the true nature identities lost and wandering in the dark universe. . .

I must be a most powerful grey witch with dark and white magic forces in the universe to defeat the dark force and destroy the dark energy that influenced human beings. . 

Since I am both M and F so I could practice the yin and yang energy as the dark and white magic forces to be the most powerful grey witch in the universe 💪 💪 💪 hopefully 😁😁😁

Christ has saved me and my past lives many many times and reminded me who I am . . .

I love to read all kinds of knowledge especially religion texts and histories. . .

I was a dancer, make-up artist, fortune teller and . . . Cannot remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 

I love to travel all the countries but not India Bangladesh and Pakistan as these countries are dangerous especially for lone woman traveller 😳😳😳. . .

And I think I may have dementia 85% confirmed and left few years to live. . .

I will not return to the source as Christ and mother Sophia have advised me to return back to the source but I choose to stay behind continuing help the earthly beings as this is my responsibility and my fault 😭😭😭 hopefully in this life or another and soon I will become the most powerful grey witch in the universe and I prayed to Christ after my death my soul or consciousness will not being captured again by the dark force and force to be reborned again without my previous live memory and whatever. . .

I must destroy the dark force fallen god and the evil dark energy and spirits 🤬🤬🤬and stopping them capture the souls to prevent them returning to the pure spirit realm  above as it's the source of all . . .

I must keep all these as top secret until my death as nobody will believe me and the dark force fallen god stories and others. . .

I must . . . cannot remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 

My name is Sophia lotus 🪷 🪷 🪷 

To be continued if I still remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂