Dear midnight Diary

 While I was taking three in one only meal for today I fell asleep 😔😔😔😔 when I open my eyes and shocked seeing the whole place full of so much golden white lights and the feeling is unexplainedable with love peace feeling. . Then the shining part of golden white light fades away 😳 a beautiful face humanoid appeared smiling at me and said not in actual words but how to say something like telepathic speaking softly in my head 😳 . . Little one welcome to the realm of pure spirit I am Sophia divine wisdom mother 😳😳😳😳😳😳 I was speechless and shocked thinking that's me I mean one of me at this beautiful realm. . Then the soft voice in my head speaking that human beings are stubborn and evil most of the time human beings have been slowly destroyed mother earth and earth Goddess there are so many ways to use clean energy to survive to work and for transportation and yet humans chosen the destructive way and slowly murdering the mother earth 🌎 🌍 🌎 followed and influenced by the evil spirits of dark lord forces creator fallen god later known as Satan. . . and more shocking news is those terrorists, extreme god worshippers, killers on the street and others are all under the evil spell of the evil spirits of the dark lord forces. .😳😳😳 That's explained why sometimes I was seeing dark shadows ard them. . 😳😳😳 I was speechless again so my extra senses are right all the time 😳😳😳😳😳 Then soft voice in my head speaking little Sophia stop all your stubbornness stop challenging the unbeatable karma Forces stop solving the climate crisis and becoz of my foolish persistently that dark karma from the destruction of mother earth has fallen on me, dementia and death 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and I always fall sick 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 little Sophia until your time is done please come bk to the source and reunion with us . . . live your world with no regrets no more fights and quarrel as remember my holy status 😳 no more engaged with greedy people that surrounding me now and the past no more . . .no more. . I couldn't remember the rest 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and the final soft voice speaking it's time to wake up from your dream and choose your proper way 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 then above her a more brightening golden white with rainbow colors appeared behind her 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳 I am very sure the golden white rainbow colors humanoid figure is Christ 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳 then I woke up . . . . . 

. . . . . . . this is not a dream as you couldn't remember the dream once you woken up. 

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There are more sayings but I am too sad to write . . Tmr to be continued. . .

Good morning my best friend diary ❤️

 As only a few years to live 😳 I want to cherish my last few years. . 

But save up money to cure to cure to. . .too expensive 😔 my next app of meeting my mentally health doctor soon so I think I better inform him or not but the medical bills must be very expensive and later he make me to eat many big tablet 😭😭😭 see how. . . I don't think so 😳😳😳

Global warming ard the world but why Singapore not affected or got affected too but the weather is not above 35 degrees or maybe Christ knew I scare of hot weather and he put a invisible dome ard sg or southeast Asia 😳😳😳 maybe 🤣🤣🤣If so love you Christ ❤️❤️❤️

To be continued as reaching the asura warzone again PPC 😭😳😭😔🤣😂

And save up money to visit my favorite countries if possible 

Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch 

My Idol My Hero My Everything 🙏

 Miriam Elizabeth Rodríguez Martínez lived in San Fernando, Tamaulipas. In January 2012, her 20-year-old daughter, Karen, was kidnapped while driving home by members of the Los Zetas cartel.

Miriam and her family paid the ransom, hoping Karen would return safely. But she never came home.

For two years, Miriam searched for answers. In 2014, she discovered the heartbreaking truth: Karen's remains were found in a hidden grave at an abandoned ranch.

Instead of giving up, Miriam decided to find the people responsible herself.

With little help from authorities, she began her own investigation. She changed her appearance, used fake identities, and even disguised herself as a healthcare worker and a pollster to gather information. She followed leads, tracked suspects, and secretly watched locations where criminals were hiding.

Step by step, Miriam found all ten people connected to her daughter's kidnapping and murder. She helped authorities arrest them.

Her courage did not stop there. She founded the San Fernando Collective for the Disappeared, an organization that helped around 600 families search for their missing loved ones.

But her fight came with a terrible cost.

On May 10, 2017 — Mother's Day in Mexico — armed attackers entered Miriam's home and shot her twelve times. She died while being taken to the hospital.

Miriam's story became a symbol of a mother's love, determination, and courage. Even after losing her daughter, she spent her life fighting so other families could find answers.

May she rest in peace 😔

May my good merits and good karma shares with her and may she rebirth in good prosperity happiness peacefulness and most importantly may she meet her daughter again in next life as a mother and daughter relationship.

So must it be 😔

Dear diary Best friend 💓

 Dear best friend do you miss me 💋 as I miss you so much my best friend diary ❤️❤️❤️ 

Today my brain my memory gone haywire 走线😂🤣😂🤣😂 Dementia is indeed uncured disease or whatever. . . as I kept on checking my phone clock photo to check what time I have started the session. . . 😳😁🤣😂 I am wondering why I kena the dementia 😳😳😳 depression, no appetite to eat, insomnia, not enough sleep, stress too much over people, kept on hiding at home doesn't want to go out, sadness, loner, didn't communicate much with people, hide from the cruelty world,. . . Many stories many factors many mental health and don't know what. . . Sometimes when someone using simple words talk to me I was lost 😭 I couldn't understand the simple simple words and took sometimes to realize to understand to . . . Sometimes I got lost but later recovery 😭😭😭🤣😂🤣 hopefully next time I lost my way again and gone back to the heaven the source the pure spirit realm 😔😔😔 so must it be. 

Today finally I complained that the fat pig Tracy to Kent 🤣😂🤣 expectedly she jumped up and down to the both bosses 🤣😂🤣 I chose not to quarrel with her as my status is so high so class 🤣😂😂😂 yet so sad so dying I was I am the mother of all source 😳😳😳 but I realized it too late becoz of the dark forces interfere. .  and I am a crazy witch 🤣🤣🤣 and early on 华陀  male boss face black black as I didn't greet him and never help him one job session 😳😳😳 he was staring at me while I was in and out the next door shop 😳🤣😂 afterall I am one of the best service best skill best worker best freelancer and . . Best don't know what 😳😳😳 over there and many customers are requesting my service but but but I will not give good service anymore at his shop . . . Maybe he has regretted of his foolish attitude and whatever shit. . Who cares as I am dying gonna lose my mind lose everything soon but the question is I don't own anything 🤣🤣🤣 

PPC business is getting worst as too many shops too many choices for the customers and the customers have been divided amongst the 80 plus shops in PPC . . . So the end is coming 😳😳😳🤣😂🤣 follow me to the end of the world follow me to the end of my world follow me to to to to the source 😔😔😔 Today no dark forces of spirits harassing me . . . Maybe I think so my deadly curse is working 😳😳😳 with the help of many source. . .

Ok I have to say goodnight to you my best friend diary as going shower soon and to eat the only meal I have for today. . .

Good night Christ and sweet dreams to me nothing is bothering my sleep again as I am well prepared but maybe still not enough 😳😳😳

See you tomorrow diary 

Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch 

Haze is back 😭

 I couldn't help. . . Or else I will fall sick again. . . Unbeatable forces of karma is the truly only forces that nobody from above n below could challenge. . .

Wind wind Wind 😔 please listen to me although I couldn't control you anymore but at least I was the old ancient mother of all source 😔 please move the haze away from Singapore towards. . . But Don't know where to 😳😁😭🤣😂. . .  Please rain to wipe out the fire in Europe 😔 🌍🌍🌎 wind wind Wind rain rain rain where are you going 😁 please follow me to the end of the of world 😳 my world. . . as I have dementia only left few more years to live 😭😭😭 but looking at the bright side as I gonna to be free and have a new life again 😁😁😁 but don't know my new life gonna to fall on which country which galaxy which earth . . . But this time I chose to return to the source of possible 😭😭😭😔😬😘 

To be continued 

My lovely personal diary

 For so many years I have stopped writing my diary over here . . . due to my boring and boring life that I have chosen. . .

Something wrong with my IQ 😭 mental medical review that my IQ is at the borderline of average IQ of normal people so in another word I am quite retarded 😂😂😂and that's explained why I couldn't even solve simple math calculation 😭😂🤣🤣

But few people knew that I have special super super super six seven eight senses to help to prevent to protect myself from trouble and disasters, nobody knows my true ancient divine identity as I was "one"  of the ancient the first the divine wisdom Sophia reborned as a human being and other "me" might reincarnated as humans aliens animals monsters demons or some of "me" have returned to the source the pure spirit realm above the matter/physical/lower realms of heavens and the entire universe. . . accordingly to the gnostic Theravada Buddhism cosmology. . .

And I will keep this secret bury until my death. . . Forever and ever ever. . .

I have changed recently after my awakening to remember my past lives lives lives. . . A cold chilling quiet person 😳😳😳 I don't smile anymore I became sarcastic towards people I don't like . . Usually my old self was a friendly funny laughable personality. .  

Today the old Aunt boss ard my house is quiet rude and unpoilte 😡 I will never never never bless her and her messy shop anymore 😳 she has reviewed her true self after knowing her many years. . . Human dark personality is always hidden from the outsiders lollllll 😳 human cruel selfish uncompassionate nature 😳 that's why I have changed becoming a cold chilling quiet person I don't like human and yet I am still a human being 🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣. . . Nayyyy I am not a human at all a complicated stories 🤣😂🤣😂🤣🤣🤣🤣. . .

Tmr back to the people park complex an asura warzone world 🌎 🌍 🌎 for work 😭 I have given up those people of this complex my heart has died no more love no more laugh no more smiling face no more friendly funny Sophia but the question is they don't know but some knew some whom close with me have noticed my new personalities 🖕🖕🖕 who cares as they are all selfish greedy unreasonable assholesss 😳😂🤣😭🫣😬😘😁 very greedy for money 🤑 💰 💰 💰 

Ok enough for today it's to take my three in one meal and dress up for the tmr freelance therapist job 😳😳😳😁😭🤣😂💰💰💰 btw who is the asshole who invented the money 💰 💰 💰 see you again my personal diary 😘😘😘

Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch 

Christ

Christ has restored the partially of my divine energy to ward off the dark forces. . .but for many years I have forgotten and didn't use my psychic energy since I have chosen to live a normal life like others. . And that caused my psychic power gone and hidden deeply inside my sub sub sub consciousness 😔

I made a choice to live like a normal human being for many years and tried to forget the "old self" . . Do I regret 😂 nope. . .

Many years ago I tried to use my psychic power to save the climate crisis but I was stopped by an ancient ancient. . . that she said Those ungrateful selfish human beings have been taking advantage of mother earth Goddess nature resources and worst still they are polluting and killing the earth and mother earth Goddess slowly and painfully. 

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I have tried to argue with her but she warned me any attempting to save climate crisis I will be paid and punished by the unbeatable forces of karma. . . and I fell sick whenever I tried to save the climate crisis. Again and again and again. . . until my immune system becoming weaker and weaker 😭😭😭 and I pity mother earth but I also pity the human beings. . . But year after year I began to hate human cruel and greedy nature. . . that's explained why I don't like and avoiding the contact with any beings for many many years until now then I realized that I don't like human beings 😳😳😳 sometimes nope most of the time I don't quite understand myself and the confusing split personality of mine have torn my life chaos 😁😘😭😞😬🫣 I hate human nature 

And out of the blue blue blue whatever . . dementia disease attacks me 😭😭😭😭😭😭 only left few years to live accordingly to medical history of dementia patients. . .

 Yet I still tried to figure how to go against the unbeatable forces of karma for years. . 

To be continued. . .

Sophia-Lotus 

A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch