To end my life before my dementia becomes worst and no one takes care of me is the best solution πππ or TMR go visit Chinese doctor free medical clinic πππ And should I inform my mental health doctor of my dementia as the appointment date is near. . . Dementia cannot be cured if I will go get help but only delaying my brain disorder and my death . . .
To be continued
While I was taking three in one only meal for today I fell asleep ππππ when I open my eyes and shocked seeing the whole place full of so much golden white lights and the feeling is unexplainedable with love peace feeling. . Then the shining part of golden white light fades away π³ a beautiful face humanoid appeared smiling at me and said not in actual words but how to say something like telepathic speaking softly in my head π³ . . Little one welcome to the realm of pure spirit I am Sophia divine wisdom mother π³π³π³π³π³π³ I was speechless and shocked thinking that's me I mean one of me at this beautiful realm. . Then the soft voice in my head speaking that human beings are stubborn and evil most of the time human beings have been slowly destroyed mother earth and earth Goddess there are so many ways to use clean energy to survive to work and for transportation and yet humans chosen the destructive way and slowly murdering the mother earth π π π followed and influenced by the evil spirits of dark lord forces creator fallen god later known as Satan. . . and more shocking news is those terrorists, extreme god worshippers, killers on the street and others are all under the evil spell of the evil spirits of the dark lord forces. .π³π³π³ That's explained why sometimes I was seeing dark shadows ard them. . π³π³π³ I was speechless again so my extra senses are right all the time π³π³π³π³π³ Then soft voice in my head speaking little Sophia stop all your stubbornness stop challenging the unbeatable karma Forces stop solving the climate crisis and becoz of my foolish persistently that dark karma from the destruction of mother earth has fallen on me, dementia and death ππππππππ and I always fall sick ππππππππππππππππππππππππ little Sophia until your time is done please come bk to the source and reunion with us . . . live your world with no regrets no more fights and quarrel as remember my holy status π³ no more engaged with greedy people that surrounding me now and the past no more . . .no more. . I couldn't remember the rest ππππππππ and the final soft voice speaking it's time to wake up from your dream and choose your proper way ππππππππ then above her a more brightening golden white with rainbow colors appeared behind her π³π³π³π³π³π³π³ I am very sure the golden white rainbow colors humanoid figure is Christ π³π³π³π³π³π³π³ππππππππππππππ³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³π³ then I woke up . . . . .
. . . . . . . this is not a dream as you couldn't remember the dream once you woken up.
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There are more sayings but I am too sad to write . . Tmr to be continued. . .
As only a few years to live π³ I want to cherish my last few years. .
But save up money to cure to cure to. . .too expensive π my next app of meeting my mentally health doctor soon so I think I better inform him or not but the medical bills must be very expensive and later he make me to eat many big tablet πππ see how. . . I don't think so π³π³π³
Global warming ard the world but why Singapore not affected or got affected too but the weather is not above 35 degrees or maybe Christ knew I scare of hot weather and he put a invisible dome ard sg or southeast Asia π³π³π³ maybe π€£π€£π€£If so love you Christ ❤️❤️❤️
To be continued as reaching the asura warzone again PPC ππ³πππ€£π
And save up money to visit my favorite countries if possible
Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch
Miriam and her family paid the ransom, hoping Karen would return safely. But she never came home.
For two years, Miriam searched for answers. In 2014, she discovered the heartbreaking truth: Karen's remains were found in a hidden grave at an abandoned ranch.
Instead of giving up, Miriam decided to find the people responsible herself.
With little help from authorities, she began her own investigation. She changed her appearance, used fake identities, and even disguised herself as a healthcare worker and a pollster to gather information. She followed leads, tracked suspects, and secretly watched locations where criminals were hiding.
Step by step, Miriam found all ten people connected to her daughter's kidnapping and murder. She helped authorities arrest them.
Her courage did not stop there. She founded the San Fernando Collective for the Disappeared, an organization that helped around 600 families search for their missing loved ones.
But her fight came with a terrible cost.
On May 10, 2017 — Mother's Day in Mexico — armed attackers entered Miriam's home and shot her twelve times. She died while being taken to the hospital.
Miriam's story became a symbol of a mother's love, determination, and courage. Even after losing her daughter, she spent her life fighting so other families could find answers.
May she rest in peace π
May my good merits and good karma shares with her and may she rebirth in good prosperity happiness peacefulness and most importantly may she meet her daughter again in next life as a mother and daughter relationship.
So must it be π
Dear best friend do you miss me π as I miss you so much my best friend diary ❤️❤️❤️
Today my brain my memory gone haywire θ΅°ηΊΏππ€£ππ€£π Dementia is indeed uncured disease or whatever. . . as I kept on checking my phone clock photo to check what time I have started the session. . . π³ππ€£π I am wondering why I kena the dementia π³π³π³ depression, no appetite to eat, insomnia, not enough sleep, stress too much over people, kept on hiding at home doesn't want to go out, sadness, loner, didn't communicate much with people, hide from the cruelty world,. . . Many stories many factors many mental health and don't know what. . . Sometimes when someone using simple words talk to me I was lost π I couldn't understand the simple simple words and took sometimes to realize to understand to . . . Sometimes I got lost but later recovery ππππ€£ππ€£ hopefully next time I lost my way again and gone back to the heaven the source the pure spirit realm πππ so must it be.
Today finally I complained that the fat pig Tracy to Kent π€£ππ€£ expectedly she jumped up and down to the both bosses π€£ππ€£ I chose not to quarrel with her as my status is so high so class π€£πππ yet so sad so dying I was I am the mother of all source π³π³π³ but I realized it too late becoz of the dark forces interfere. . and I am a crazy witch π€£π€£π€£ and early on ει male boss face black black as I didn't greet him and never help him one job session π³π³π³ he was staring at me while I was in and out the next door shop π³π€£π afterall I am one of the best service best skill best worker best freelancer and . . Best don't know what π³π³π³ over there and many customers are requesting my service but but but I will not give good service anymore at his shop . . . Maybe he has regretted of his foolish attitude and whatever shit. . Who cares as I am dying gonna lose my mind lose everything soon but the question is I don't own anything π€£π€£π€£
PPC business is getting worst as too many shops too many choices for the customers and the customers have been divided amongst the 80 plus shops in PPC . . . So the end is coming π³π³π³π€£ππ€£ follow me to the end of the world follow me to the end of my world follow me to to to to the source πππ Today no dark forces of spirits harassing me . . . Maybe I think so my deadly curse is working π³π³π³ with the help of many source. . .
Ok I have to say goodnight to you my best friend diary as going shower soon and to eat the only meal I have for today. . .
Good night Christ and sweet dreams to me nothing is bothering my sleep again as I am well prepared but maybe still not enough π³π³π³
See you tomorrow diary
Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch
I couldn't help. . . Or else I will fall sick again. . . Unbeatable forces of karma is the truly only forces that nobody from above n below could challenge. . .
Wind wind Wind π please listen to me although I couldn't control you anymore but at least I was the old ancient mother of all source π please move the haze away from Singapore towards. . . But Don't know where to π³πππ€£π. . . Please rain to wipe out the fire in Europe π πππ wind wind Wind rain rain rain where are you going π please follow me to the end of the of world π³ my world. . . as I have dementia only left few more years to live πππ but looking at the bright side as I gonna to be free and have a new life again πππ but don't know my new life gonna to fall on which country which galaxy which earth . . . But this time I chose to return to the source of possible πππππ¬π
To be continued
For so many years I have stopped writing my diary over here . . . due to my boring and boring life that I have chosen. . .
Something wrong with my IQ π mental medical review that my IQ is at the borderline of average IQ of normal people so in another word I am quite retarded πππand that's explained why I couldn't even solve simple math calculation πππ€£π€£
But few people knew that I have special super super super six seven eight senses to help to prevent to protect myself from trouble and disasters, nobody knows my true ancient divine identity as I was "one" of the ancient the first the divine wisdom Sophia reborned as a human being and other "me" might reincarnated as humans aliens animals monsters demons or some of "me" have returned to the source the pure spirit realm above the matter/physical/lower realms of heavens and the entire universe. . . accordingly to the gnostic Theravada Buddhism cosmology. . .
And I will keep this secret bury until my death. . . Forever and ever ever. . .
I have changed recently after my awakening to remember my past lives lives lives. . . A cold chilling quiet person π³π³π³ I don't smile anymore I became sarcastic towards people I don't like . . Usually my old self was a friendly funny laughable personality. .
Today the old Aunt boss ard my house is quiet rude and unpoilte π‘ I will never never never bless her and her messy shop anymore π³ she has reviewed her true self after knowing her many years. . . Human dark personality is always hidden from the outsiders lollllll π³ human cruel selfish uncompassionate nature π³ that's why I have changed becoming a cold chilling quiet person I don't like human and yet I am still a human being π€£ππ€£ππ€£ππ€£. . . Nayyyy I am not a human at all a complicated stories π€£ππ€£ππ€£π€£π€£π€£. . .
Tmr back to the people park complex an asura warzone world π π π for work π I have given up those people of this complex my heart has died no more love no more laugh no more smiling face no more friendly funny Sophia but the question is they don't know but some knew some whom close with me have noticed my new personalities πππ who cares as they are all selfish greedy unreasonable assholesss π³ππ€£ππ«£π¬ππ very greedy for money π€ π° π° π°
Ok enough for today it's to take my three in one meal and dress up for the tmr freelance therapist job π³π³π³πππ€£ππ°π°π° btw who is the asshole who invented the money π° π° π° see you again my personal diary πππ
Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch
