Dear Christ 😔😔😔

 Please protect my beloved country and the local people only as they are very stressful living in a tiny island without any natural resources 😭😞😞 

Please keep the hot temperature away from my beloved country 🙏 🙏 💗 🙏 

Please blow the haze away from my country to. . to . . to don't know where to . . 😳🤣😂🤣😂😳

Please keep my country safe from all natural disasters eg like "earthquake shaking" influence by nearby earthquake countries. . .

Please bless my beloved country with prosperity, happiness and peaceful environment and all the local people only in my beloved country. . 

And . . and and. . We are very very very stressful people living in a tiny island without any natural resources and yet our government wanted us and my beloved country to be the best of all the best 😳😔🥹🥺😬😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 The government is too much over over over ambitious as a tiny island only. . .

And I used to like the current government but not now 😭😭😭😭😭😭 . . .

 so must it be 

To be continued if I still remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 

Dear me sophialotus

To keep records of myself In case I have forgotten of myself all😭😳😭😳😭😔😊😳😭😳

My name is Sophia lotus 🪷🪷🪷 

I am a Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Grey Witch 🧹 🧹 🧹 

I was born in August 9 as my beloved country birthday 🎂 🎂 🎂 🎉 🎉 🎉 

I was born in the first day of Chinese lunar seven ghost month 😳😳😳 That's explained why I can see ghosts , aura energy and . . .

My IQ is below the average person IQ 😭 😭 😭 accordingly to the mental health reviews and that's explained why I couldn't solve simple math calculation 😭 😭 😭 

But I have super super super extra senses like unstable remote viewing, unstable distance hearing, unstable distance eye viewing, unstable visions of the past and future and very very very strong "seven sense". . that protecting me helping me dissolving all my problems and everything 😔😔😔 sometimes only 😭😭😭

I wanted to live a normal happy and peaceful life and hidden my psychic power away and backpacking travel the whole world with my so called beloved dead husband CY and be a good Theravada Buddhist and reach enlightenment in this life but but but . . .😭😭😭

My name is Sophia lotus 🪷 🪷 🪷 

Lotus was my extra name from my lotus tattoo on my back which is meant for  remembering my true love "dead husband" CY and the tattoo is meant for covered dissolving the twin butterfly tattoo curse on my back but some stupid rumors out there saying is a blessed lotus by a monk or whatever 🤬🤬🤬 and those assholesss kept on touching my lotus tattoo that is meant for remembering my so called dead husband and dissolving the twin butterfly tattoo curse and I give them 🖕🖕🖕 as they are greedy ignorant and superstition and their skin is as thick as their asshole cun 🤬 They are  shameless not deserve to be human beings at all 😡 they should transform themselves into an animals. . . .

I dislike evil and greedy people as they should be punished by their own dark karma without seeking and cheating by my divine blessing to block their dark karma and I only bless those righteous people only especially  they need help but not those greedy assholesss trying to get near me for their greediness and evil intentions 🤬🤬🤬 and if they provoked me instead of blessings but serve them with curses until they have realized their mistakes then the curse will be dissolved automatically. . . And the curse is naturally and automatically cast out once I am being provoked or touched me without my permission but they didn't know that at first will be good luck blessings then later will turn into a bad curse until they repentance 😳😳😳 I have warned them many times but those assholesss still blinded by their greediness 😁😁😁 karma is indeed. . .

I dislike human beings and yet I want to help climate crisis but was stopped by the most powerful force of karma in the entire world then I became weak and fell sick often 😭😭😭 as I have tried many times many ways to challenge the unbeatable powerful force of karma. . . But I have failed. . .

My so called dead husband his name is CY as we met on the plane flying towards Thailand 1999 lunar month and date 07/07/1999 😳😳😳 legendary of the Chinese love story involved a mortal man and a goddess. . . And he has changed me totally after I've met him fatefully on plane ❤️ A romantic encountered 😳😘😍😔😭😭😭😭😭 too sad to write more. . .

I hate my father my sisters, brother and lastly my evil aunt as they are big hypocrites liars and great pretenders as an innocent good people 🖕 🖕 🖕 sometimes they like to pretend to be kind and good people by helping others just to feel good for themselves or mostly an illusions to keep them happily as pretending to be good people but deeply they are evil and selfish human beings 😒😒😒 They are nutcases too but sadly they didn't know 🤣😂🤣😂🤣 but I love my mother and always share my merits with her hoping she would rebirth in good condition place and family and whatever is good 😊 😊 😊 

I have been stalking by some stalkers with dark aura and some are not but they didn't know 😳😳😳 and I hate them as they are from the police force of my country or control freaks too as they have destroyed my life making my life more miserable lonely and my depression gotta worst because of those police and making me isolated from my friends and my family others 🤬🤬🤬 and their dark karma is awaiting for them as they didn't know my true ancient divine identity 😳🤬🤣😁😬😘💪😊 An ancient divine wisdom Sophia mother of all sources. . .

I am a lone wanderer as I don't like the human nature. . .

Most importantly I was a divine wisdom Sophia mother of all sources 😳 😭 😔 and my actual old divine soul was "broken" into millions millions pieces and forgotten the true nature identities lost and wandering in the dark universe. . .

I must be a most powerful grey witch with dark and white magic forces in the universe to defeat the dark force and destroy the dark energy that influenced human beings. . 

Since I am both M and F so I could practice the yin and yang energy as the dark and white magic forces to be the most powerful grey witch in the universe 💪 💪 💪 hopefully 😁😁😁

Christ has saved me and my past lives many many times and reminded me who I am . . .

I love to read all kinds of knowledge especially religion texts and histories. . .

I was a dancer, make-up artist, fortune teller and . . . Cannot remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 

I love to travel all the countries but not India Bangladesh and Pakistan as these countries are dangerous especially for lone woman traveller 😳😳😳. . .

And I think I may have dementia 85% confirmed and left few years to live. . .

I will not return to the source as Christ and mother Sophia have advised me to return back to the source but I choose to stay behind continuing help the earthly beings as this is my responsibility and my fault 😭😭😭 hopefully in this life or another and soon I will become the most powerful grey witch in the universe and I prayed to Christ after my death my soul or consciousness will not being captured again by the dark force and force to be reborned again without my previous live memory and whatever. . .

I must destroy the dark force fallen god and the evil dark energy and spirits 🤬🤬🤬and stopping them capture the souls to prevent them returning to the pure spirit realm  above as it's the source of all . . .

I must keep all these as top secret until my death as nobody will believe me and the dark force fallen god stories and others. . .

I must . . . cannot remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 

My name is Sophia lotus 🪷 🪷 🪷 

To be continued if I still remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 🤣 🤣 🤣 😂 

To be the most powerful witch in the universe 💪💪💪

 How to be a most powerful grey witch in the universe???? Before ending my life. . .

Chakras meditation 

Mother Earth raw energy and . . .

Ancient forbidden knowledges of Raw gemstones and crystals with human elementary form 😳 how's the hell did I know this forbidden ancient secret knowledge 😳😳😳

Reunion or return to the source or as one for all with the Maha Great Holy Spirit 😳😳😳 again I knew this . . .😳😳😳

Absorbing the Goddesses and Gods divine energy 😳😳😳 I couldn't believe what I have written as all these knowledge that I never learn from any master and yet these knowledge hidden deeply inside my super sub consciousness 😳😳😳 Past lives many lives memories and forbidden knowledge. . .

And . . .

Traditional Buddhism meditation before chakras meditation 😳😳😳 and I knew that 😳😳😳

I must protect those people being possessed or influenced by the evil spirits or dark energy of the dark force fallen god and destroy the dark evil energy 🤬🤬🤬 that influenced those terrorists, extreme worshippers and others . They are not themselves their minds are deeply influenced by the dark force. . 😭😭😭

And I will become a grey witch with dark and white magic forces that hopefully will make me the most powerful grey witch in the universe . . as I need yin and yang energy and to defeat the evil yin and yang twins XXX 😔😔😔 and I am both M and F yang and yin of both black and white magic to be the most powerful grey witch in the universe. . .

Christ and mother Sophia as me please forgive and understanding my decision not to return back to the source as one of many millions me must stay behind to dissolve the big mistakes that mother Sophia as me had created in the beginning of the time of the entire world. . . 

To be continued if I still remember 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣. . .

I lost my interest to eat becoz ofDementia

Three meals breakfast lunch dinner into one meal per day I still no appetite to eat 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Dementia has made me lost appetite to eat healthy 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 

Soon or sooner I will lost my mind my memories so better write down everything abt myself to remind of myself. . .

Sosososo. . Can't remember what to write ✍️ ✍️ ✍️ hopefully the indigo gemstone for the mind chakras will heal my brain stopping  my dementia getting worst and of course plus others. . .

To be continued. . If I still remember 🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😭😭😭😭🤣😂. . .

Who is this Bitch 😳

 

😂🤣😂

Why sg no hot weather no heavy rain no earthquake

 Because of my karma trying to protect the world???? Or Christ is secretly helping me 😳😳😳 as for many years no serious earthquake activities shaking my country from the influence of earthquakes countries like Indonesia 😳 and no earthquake in Malaysia beside the eastern Malaysia 🤔🤔🤔

All ye Spirits of rain, water and wind please listen to me as I was I am I the all source of divine wisdom Sophia please rain down to wipe out the fire in Europe and stop all heavy pouring in all countries and restore the normal temperature of all countries and remove dissolve the heat of all countries that have been affected 😔😔😔 although I couldn't control the nature elements anymore due to the unbeatable powerful karma Forces of destruction of the mother earth and earth Goddess that fell on me sick in the past and present and in the future. . .

I will listen to the source and stop the suicide actions that challenging the most powerful force energy of the entire heavens and the universe I have no choice but to protect myself for the sake of better benefits of all humanity on mother earth 🌎🌍🌎

So must it be so this is the way and the only future destiny I have to face 😔😔😔

. . . . . . . . Hopefully hopefully hopefully one day the dark force will repent of his and their evil deeds 😔😔😔 Dreammmmmm on Sophia continue to dream the impossible impossible of impossibly realization of repentance 🤔😳🤔😭😡🤣🤣🤣🤣😂😬

Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch 

Dear revenge 😡

 I might not return to the source and reunion with divine wisdom Sophia, 😔😔😔 I am thinking thinking about staying behind on earth and continued helping earthly beings as they are they were allllll my fault of the creation in the beginning of the world. . .

After I have ended my life I will choose to becoming the powerful witch in spirit form including dark energy to defeat the dark force as they and he must pay for all my sufferings in this life and the millions millions millions past lives and the millions millions millions of " me" who have been lost and wandering around the dark cold universe that is still under the controller of the dark force fallen god creator Yaldabaoth later known as Satan who had been cast down to the abyss of Tartarus a dark deepest abyss of realm of titans aka asura. . .

May the source of the great Maha holy spirit blessings and understanding 😭😭😭 I must I will I need to be responsible for my creation mistakes in the beginning of time and physical/material world which is indirectly created by me through the dark force creator of the entire physical realms of heavens and the universe as I will not I must could not run away from my big big big mistakes 😭😭😭😡😡😡😳🌍🌎😬😡😡😡😡😭😡😡😡

So must it be 😔 and may the unbeatable powerful forces of karma help me to defeat the dark force. . .

Sophia-Lotus A Gnostic Theravada Buddhist Witch